Despite the fact that it's only March, this whole year has been one big to do list so far. Finish the book, get your financial aid packet turned in, survive winter quarter, finish homework, study for tests, finish the costume for the competition, etc. And all of these 'to do's' come with their own lists for how to complete them.
I've become the rather unamused owner of more than a couple gray hairs over these lists. And no, I'm not joking. And it irks me to no end that I have said gray hairs at the ripe old age of 21. Ridiculous. Pfft.
I'll admit. I've never been very good at finishing things. I'm a master at starting them. My parents have told me on numerous occasions that I try to do too much. I have too many interests, too many passions, and while I feel extremely blessed that God gave me the talents that I have, there are times I wish I was only passionate about one specific thing, maybe two. Maybe I wouldn't get myself into these messes.
I'm a procrastinator by nature. My english teacher used to refer to me as her 'agent procrastinateur.' I'm that kid that leaves studying for tests until a couple hours before, crams for them, then gets a 98%. I'm that kid that starts her 6-8 page paper the night before it's due and only does a single draft. I'm that kid that, when given an entire year to work on something, spends most of that time being a total nerd while getting a thing or two done here and there before yanking most of the project out of nowhere with only a month to spare. That's the kind of worker I've been for as long as I can remember. I'm the queen of late nights, 1am is an hour I am well acquainted with, and even though I -know- that leaving things till the last minute will completely stress me out, I do it anyways.
But it's a habit I'm desperately trying to break this year. There's too much to do, too much I -want- to do, to let procrastination hold me back. I have this feeling that if I were to rid myself of my bad habits, I could possibly become an unstoppable inferno of willpower and determination. And that's a me I'd love to get better aquainted with.
These last couple months have been teaching me that procrastination isn't the way I want to keep moving forward. There are opportunities for me to grab if I don't let them pass me by. So I won't. I have a drive to finish what I've started, and it -will- get done.
That being said, I've made a list of things to get done today. They -will- get done, and so help me, procrastination will have no hand in it.
So let's do this. ^_~